the story of my life... Part I

ambitions without conviction,convictions without reason and reasonings with no future...in short a piece of art only a genius could script...:) that has been the story of my life so far...I know ppl who now say "Shawn was one who always knew what he wanted...and look at him now...thats what i call dedication"..those basically are my close friends who know me well and are trying to improve my reputation or the ones who just think they know me well(incase one of you actually reads this,,,guyzz u are way off target)..to confess to u all I never knew what I wanted nor am I any more enlightened even now..all that steadfastidness was just a farce ..crap i used to practise with prefection to hide that I dreaded responsibilities..not that I fooled everyone..i know some of you could read through me...To the ones who could not ,this confession,this deviation from the central theme of this blog is just to let you know that I now have worked up the courage to accept this fact...but that in now way implies that I have changed..This sarcastic self defamation is just to proclaim the fact that I consider even this confession to be a big achievement ,especially for a person whose life revolves around just himself ...